How do I......

Can love be so hurtful?

How can something so beautiful and yet be so painful?

love and hate

beautiful and painful



how do I
get through one night without you
if i had to live without you
what kind of world would that be
oh and i need you in my arms,
need you to hold,
you are my world, my heart, my soul,
if you ever leave, baby you will take away everything'
good in my life,
and baby
how, how do i live, without you,
i want to know
how do i breathe without you,
if you ever go,
how do i ever, ever survive,
how do i
how do I.......live.....

last scene from con Air and I cried everytime I hear this song.what can i say, i'm a softie.....

Ouch! It hurts!

ouch!That hurts!It's not like I had never cut myself before, many , many times, knife cut , A4 paper cut, broken bottle cut, cut which I didn't know from nowhere and I'd just put a plaster over it. Actually what I wanted to show was how deep the cut was but it seemed like my car got the centre stage here and not my finger!remind me to take some photography lesson

it looks kinda weird....

but yesterday, the cut was deeper than usual, small but deep...I was making my cookies. the green tea was already in the oven and I was going to start on the semolina which required minyak sapi.Minyak sapi didn't come in blocks like butter but it came in a can. Somehow, on that fated day, yesterday, I tried to lift up the lid ( silly and careless me tried to lift it using my finger instead of spoon like I normally do) and in a split second, I could feel the sharp blade cut into my finger.

Ouch! that was deep!Blood started tricking down nonstop. I quickly grabbed the First Aid box in the toilet and took out some cotton wool to stop the blood from coming out. After awhile, it did and I put on the acriflavine lotion ( or the ubat kuning which I knew from I was very young, luka aje, ubat kuning)

Arrest than green can! Guilty! As charged. looking innocent and schmuckly there.

Just a word of caution to me and everyone reading this, please..please be careful with canned items. I threw this can away and took a new tin of minyak sapi for my cookies. don't want anyone to become Raja Bersiong ( just in case traces of blood was in there )after eating my cookies:-)

Lesson learned. Whatever you are doing, focus and concentrate, especially when dealing with sharp objects. Don't let your mind drift elsewhere. I guess, my mind was elsewhere when I tried to open the can and look what it got me.

reminds me of the song 'cuts like a knife' by rockwell

Acara Lompat Dalam guni or was it lari Dalam guni?

should I run or should I jump? My teacher taught us to jump in the guni but I saw all those kids running...... so which is it?

jump Batrisyia, jump!

or was it run, Batrisyia run!

I wasn't sure and a bit confused too. I thought it was an acara lari dalam guni but I saw other kids ran in their gunny sack, so which is it?

My Batrisyia jumped or hopped at first , then decided to run half way, then
jumped again and finally..........

what the heck, just run! out of the guni.......

though you are not the champ this time dear, but you are still "The Champ" in mummy's heart.

love you heaps.....

JANUARY TO APRIL BABIES' BIRTHDAYS

Chocolate cake with ganache and colourful sugar sprinkles scattered on top and cololurflu smarties arranged on the sides.

Happy Birthday to January , February, march and April babies of the pra classes at my daughter's school. Her teacher ordered the cake the celebrate the kids' birthdays. How sweet and thoughtful of the teacher. I was informed that each quarter, the kids will be celebrating their birthdays and by doing this, at least each one can experience the birthday celebration with their friends.

I made this MCB, complimentary from Zue's Oven since my daughter was one of the birthday babies.

birthday kids with their cake, eagerly and patiently waiting for the green light to cut their cake.

the cake was shared with the birthday kids from the other class too. love is sharing!

it's makan time! umi prepared laksa for the kids. kek ada, MCB ada, chiffon cake ada, keropok goreng pun ada. seronok budak2 ni. kalu hari2 biasa, makan satu jenis sahaja, but hari ni extra special.







Thank you Cikgu and Happy Sixth birthday Kids. Semoga menjadi anak2 yang soleh dan solehah.

GARFIELD

"I hate Mondays" was his favourite phrase.
Lasagna was his favourite food
Jon was his master
Odie was his mate, ( for bullying)
Nermal ( he hated this cute little cat)

Me....... his fan! and so are my kids!

I started reading Garfield during my Uni years. His books were readily available and was affordable too for students like me. I normally bought them at WHSmith in Ilford where my friends and I would sometimes go during our free time. Ilford town was the nearest town to our place. My first house as a student was in Windsor Road, only walking distance to Ilford, where I shared with three other Malaysian students. We rented the place from a nice Pakistani landlady called Jamila .

Now my kids like to read Garfield too, especially Ameer. Even my six year old Batrisyia loves to look thru the books . Tsara likes to read thicker books, like the Mr Midnight books , Harry Porter or the Twilight series .


These are just the few collections that I have and my son has started to collect them now.I used to cut the cartoon comic strip in the papers ( where did I put them?)Perhaps, if and when I have the time I would bind them nicely and make a book out of the paper clippings for my kids to read.

I love reading, I have read most of Sidney Sheldon's book from 'The other side of midnight" to "The sand of Time" ( I think there are a few more newer ones), a few of Stephen King's novels; Misery, Tommyknockers, just to name two, Jeffrey Archer Kane and Abel, Prodigal Daughter, a more romantic books by Danielle Steele and many many more.

I still like reading but have less time to do them now. I must try to make the time because when I read, the satisfaction is overwhelming, something that could not be achieved by watching the novel turned movie version on TVs. the feeling is not the same. Whenever I started holding a book, its difficult to put it down and the story would transport me into its world. I could imagine how the place looked like and made me feel as if I had been there, it shows just how great these writers are.

I remember reading "Gone With The wind" and they have made a movie out of that novel and it's nice to be able to actually visualise the characters , to actually see Rhett Butler and Scarlet O'Hara on the big screen, such a handsome and beautiful pair, unfortunately, "Frankly my dear, i don't give a damn".Ego vs passion and ego won , I think. How did it end. Did they end up together? Did they live happily ever after?

Nowadays, I have added a few more writers and more books in my collection, a different kind of book, neither mystery, nor horror but more delectable in another sense. I am talking about cake decorating books by Martha Stewart, Debbie Brown, Peggie Porschen, Mich Turner and a few more. These people are talented too, with their beautiful and intricate cake collections and they are so inspiring. Not to mention, my cookbook collections. Let's not go into that. I would go on and on about books because I have so many books at home, books from my students days, my working days and now my stay at home days. Books and magazines are everywhere in the house.

Reality calls! house chores to do. I'll leave my books for a while. Happy reading everyone! Reading is good, reading is educational, reading is fun, so keep on reading!

Lari dalam guni Champ

face of the "Champ" ...for lari dalam guni......:-)
she would show the little trophy to anybody who comes to our house and this evening, when I was talking to my sis on the phone, she

whispered to me, "lari dalam guni" ...okay, okay , I got the message, you wanted me to tell aunty that you won first place for that event , okay, I'll tell her and I would even put a photo of you with your trophy.....:-) Everybody say Cheese.....

Batrisyia and her classmates who were involved in the "hari Cergas Minda " last 14th April. they represented their school in the " Lari Dalam guni"
and a few other events too. guess what, they would be representing the district after this, so the teacher said. Wow! My daughter, representing the district?

That reminds of my childhood.......let's walk down memory lane a bit, shall we, humour me okay.....

the year was, in the 70s,the bellbottom years, the DJ Dave Uji Rashid, Hail amir era, in a small village called Pulai chondong, there was and I think still is, a school called SKPC, my school, I think 1977 or 1978, can't remember much but I do remember that I represented my school not for tracks but for short play competition, that was when I was in Std Six, story telling, ( now you know how old I am....ancient! ) when I was in std 5, ceramah ugama, was it Std 4 or 5?, that was during the primary school days, what about during my secondary school era, hmmm let me think...I was in the 4 X 400 metres relay, you know, lari berganti-ganti, kena tukar baton tu, I represented my house, rumah kuning or rumah Mahsuri and I am proud to say that we always won first place among the houses.those were the days,now, i can't even run the 100 metres, I think.

Suddenly i am remebering something, I think I won the first place for table tennis or ping pong during my uni days when we had a friendly match among us, the malay students there. I guess i was the best among the worst....hehe.....

Batrisyia's turn to receive her trophy

proudly, this mother of hers stood there, with her canon EOS 1000D, looking like a pro....I said, looking like a pro but not necessarily a pro....:-) taking the picture of her daughter receiving the trophy...... being watched by other students and teachers ( perasan....) what the heck....I am just being ....... a proud mum.......